Is “Success” Killing You?

Influencer. Famous. Mommy Blogger. Tall, thin, blonde. Dead by suicide.

How can this be? She was celebrated. She was represented. She managed her depression.

When will it stop? When will suicides be a thing of the past?

When we surrender all to Jesus Christ.

In Weight Watchers, now known as WW, when someone would reach his or her goal weight, we’d all ask, “How’d you do it?” We wanted to know the formula for success.

I’m here to tell you that, after 33 years of battling mental illness– suicidal thoughts and attempts, hospitalizations, and one humiliating episode after another–I am healed.

Read that again: I AM HEALED OF MENTAL ILLNESS. I no longer have suicidal thoughts. As a matter of fact, it sounds absolutely ridiculous to me now. Instead of researching ways to end my life, I spend my time planning vacations and figuring ways to redecorate my home.

What I thought would make me happy–respect and admiration for looking beautiful and living well– is a lie. What you look like and what you do does not matter. All that matters is glorifying Jesus and loving others.

Today’s the day. Today is YOUR day. To all you moms and dads out there, if you could heal your children of pain, wouldn’t you do it? Your Heavenly Father wants to do the same for you. Let Him. Surrender to Him.

To all who have been praying for a loved one’s healing, do not give up. He hears you. He loves you. He feels your desperation.

So how’d I do it?

I didn’t.

God did.